hmmmm - okay - so that kind of worked. I'll keep going.

Back in November of 2008, I lost my job. Some days - I hated that job. A lot of time - I loved it. I put together large training events for a large company. Really enjoyed it. Deeply disappointed when I lost my job. Nine months later - I finally found another job - thought it would be similar for the Large Company's competitor. It wasn't. I did nothing. Seriously - I read a book at my desk, the girl next to me gave herself a mani/pedi DURING the day.
Found something else last June. Thought Great, same kind of thing as original job. YAY! Nope - not it either.

Now I find myself on a "performance improvement plan" with my manager (although - not technically, since it has to go through HR and they don't know have any communication from my manager yet) and I am debating my next steps.
Part of me - wants to run like hell.
Part of me - wants to stay and fix this.

My husband (my sweet, long suffering Husband) says "Look - life is too short. It's not that you failed. Did you try your hardest? Do you think you can fix this? No? Then you didn't fail."

But I've never been fired. Well - from one stupid temp job a million years ago in college. I'm still looking for a job - that hasn't stopped... but aurgh.


I keep thinking - what else can I do? What other jobs could I do?

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This weekend - we're going boating. It's Cinco de Mayo, It's Derby day and dammit - I need a break. So there will be drinking and dumb hat wearing (I bought one - it's white - but I bought a HUGE orange flower to go on it - along with ribbon - so while it's not a derby like Hubs thinks I should have - it'll be fine.)